Over the past couple of years, I’d gotten into the habit of posting re-hashed versions of self-help articles that others had written. I would read them, and then rewrite them from my perspective.
It works to an extent, as it allowed me to give my opinion on a wide range of topics, most of them being things I felt I was going through at the time. So in my mind, I was sort of doing a bit of self therapy by writing my version of these pieces.
I honestly can’t say if it was a good thing or not, or even it was anything remotely original. Sometimes it even felt like I was just rewording what had already been said instead of actually giving my option on the topic.
But as well, I noticed after awhile that I tended towards two main types of topics – gay dating tips and mental health issues.
And I’m by no means an expert in either subject.
It probably gave a contrasting and possibly confusing blend for those reading my site – one day I’d post about the joys of online dating profiles, and then the next about needing to build up self-esteem.
Or perhaps (to some) it gave them more of an insight into how I viewed the world.. and that’s the perspective I’m REALLY hoping people went for. 😉
For awhile I found myself constantly searching the internet for interesting articles about whatever idea had popped into my head, or whatever depressive or anxiety-ridden ‘symptom’ I’d convinced myself I had that day .. and then any links I didn’t use that day, I would save them in my blog drafts to use another day.
So today (or is it last night now..), I was scrolling through the saved drafts, and it’s a plethora of cheesy and almost ridiculous sounding articles. Though, some could be helpful…
- 7 Obvious Signs He Wants to Hook Up and Not Date
- The Thirst is Real (kinda don’t want to know about that…)
- Secrets of Happily Single Gay Men.. Who Really Want a Boyfriend
- Writing Your Way to Happiness (I still might read this one..)
- What Your Friends with Social Anxiety Want You To Know
- Table For One – The Rise of Solo Dining
And the list goes on and on.. over 100 saved article links or potential post ideas, some even ranging as far back as 2013!!
To be fair, when I was regularly ‘writing’ these posts, it was usually because I wasn’t happy about something in my life so wanted to get some perspective and help myself somehow.
But it was also usually because there really wasn’t much actually going on in my life at that moment (or day), and my own loneliness or insecurities drove me to the keyboard to ‘fix myself’.
I can’t honestly say if that was a good thing or not, if it even helped at the time, or even if I’ll never do it again if I continue to post regularly.
Though I do have to sometimes laugh at myself… posting tips on online dating or maintaining a relationship, when I was sitting home alone and still had never had a boyfriend.
Maybe I was self sabotaging my own personal life by over-thinking it all.
And maybe I still do.. while sitting at home alone. 😉